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| 10:28am 10/10/2005 |
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YEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHHHH!!!!! its digitial photography!! |
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| 08:52pm 18/09/2005 |
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music: Papa dont preach..
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Soo.. yeah really im just downloading music and really bored.. |
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| 08:43am 31/08/2005 |
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mood:  nostalgic music: Bob Dylan - Hurricane
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So as u get older u tend to realize more and more things.. u stop having fun and pretending u'll never get old. u start work. and then u basically die.....
I havent been able to sleep at all latly. No clue why. just cant sleep. makes me miss my shore home.. makes me listen to bruce springstien and think about how i wish i was back home.
See as I get older i tend to miss the things that were part of me when i was little. I miss the shore the boardwalk the sleepless nights. Just having fun...
I dont know maybe i should move.. go back. I would love it. I really would.. I think it would make me soo happy. I could go to school in the city i could basically do whateva i wanted. I dont know why i dont do it.. I just cant wait till highschools over. then i'll be out for good. I'll do what i want. I dont think i'll end up going to collegge i think im just gonna go see what i can make of myself. See what i want to do for me.. i havent done that in a while.
Slowly i realize that everythings soo boring and i'll i wanna do is smoke pot to be in a different state of mind so i dont have to listen to stupid people. I can just go off and space out and think. Thats why i like being high most of the time. But then there are those good times where ur all sitting around laughing and u dont know what about..
Really my job has brought me to a new level ive had to grow up and be "responsible" quickler then a lot of people. I live off of my paychecks usually with a lil help from family but i could basically move out and live on my own if i wanted too.
Sometimes i wish people that i was my age instead of older. I get that a lot. I get sick of it. I dont know to me it means that im not having as much fun as i should..
Recently ive become close with my manager shes become like a mom to me.. Something that i havent really had growing up. I think thats why i havent quite yet and gone further into my career.. I love my job i really do. its just that some of the people i work with.. i really wonder.. there so fucking dumb.
Really im not the same person i used to be. I am but.. i dont know theres something different. i cant put my finger on it.... |
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| 10:09am 27/08/2005 |
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music: rock your body by justin timberlake.. oh my..
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Italy ok.. MY PLACE to BE discotechias*sp* are like the best things ever getting fucked up and going dancing.. I HAD SOO MUCH FUN.. it was good times. ive never felt.. i dont know so in place in my life and i found it at a lil disco hall in roma.. Then the almalfie coast *sp* now thats one beautiful place and the bar in atrani, with a crazy waiter who gave us free bottles of wine and made a dance floor for us. man.. italy is in its self a whole nother world. |
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| C'mon C'mon |
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| 12:49pm 13/07/2005 |
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mood:  devious
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So there is way to much hate in shoreline.. i dont understand it.. and i dont really care.. i just wish everyone was peaceful with one and another. Im sick of hating people i'd rather just bee cool with them cuz really i dont hate anyone well.. theres one person but besides that everyones fine with me.
Also i just dont i dont know understand why were all soo clique like really we all are. U may be like no im not but come on dont lie to urself. im just kinda bored of it all its the same old shit. whats up with that? isnt there anything new.. we all relatively do the same things... I dont know summer school has just made me think a lot. Its fun ive met new people learned new things. etc.. all in a three hour period of time to make up a math class which i shouldnt have failed. But u know shit gets fucked up so u just got a deal with it. But all im saying is we should all just get along im sick of this crap. We all go through the same shit no ones better then the other. Basically were all the same. thats all im trying to say... |
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| im so tired.. |
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| 09:21pm 06/06/2005 |
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mood:  confused music: First straw by 311, Wave of Mutilation Pixies
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Life.. i hate being a teenagere theres too much.. I dont know im soo sick of it all.. im tired worn out and just sick of a lot of bull shit. I havent partied latly which im actually kinda happy about.. im slowly regaining my brain cells.. unfortunatly ive been a slacker *go figure end of the year* and i havent really been doing my shit. Which has been ugh killing me... being yelled at by ur teachers blahblahblah and all of that other bull shit. hey! im excited for the summer.. summertime ladedaaa finally unfortunatlly i'll probably be working most of my summer.. thank god for fake tanning..
Conffuzing conffuzing it seems my mind just races about everything.. that i have to make decisions Right NOW that i dont wanna make.. I would tell u what they are but i really dont feel the need too.. Its as if im only 16 but im 21 over night. i dont understand why people seem to need to put a hole bunch of pressure on me*family* its as if im never good enough i never do anything right b.s. but i dont really care anymore its as if that doesnt even faze me what they say.. maybe it does maybe it doesnt how do i know? i havent really sat down and thought about anything latly theres just too much too doo.. *sigh*
In the end..i know what i need to do, what i must do. Yeah it'll be hard but i know whats best for myself i know i like to ignore this fact cuz frankly i get sick of being the one taking care of myself.. ive basically been on my own for a really long time. But i know whose right whose wrong.. what he said in 6th i know is the truth. ive been avoiding the truth for almost a year can i continue? should I? the truth... its a scary thing what will i do then? i dont know... I dont know anymore. |
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| Damn its been a long time |
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| 04:37pm 02/06/2005 |
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music: My baby love. The supremes
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Why hello journal i almost forgot i had you.
Life.. well life has been interesting.. neh im stressed according to my family i gues im the bad kid whateva. i dont really care anymore. so hopefully over this summer i'll get a tatoo.. Love in arabic will be my tattoooey it'll look really cool.
Damn... fucking hate are school so i went to the nurses office today cuz i was sick and i was all like oh they wont count me absent but they did those fuckers.
Works been good latly.. which is nice. Im starting to make friends!!!
but i have a shit ton of hw which sucks |
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| 12:56pm 13/05/2005 |
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mmm water.. is good my tummy hurts i really need to stop. U know. i need to slow down i need to go through my mail ASAP i need to get an attendance record oh my.. i need to slowww dowwn.. MAJORLY. |
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| 01:13pm 11/05/2005 |
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soo library time... yeah woah super exciting. not this is LAME!!!!!!!!!! where are my pants? justins fatasss doesnt fit on the chair.. hahahahaha collonel justin that is. |
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| 09:13pm 21/04/2005 |
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mood:  chipper music: The weight by the Band
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Dun dun.. the past two days have been good days. |
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| 08:15pm 04/04/2005 |
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mood:  lifes peaceful music: Just Pretend-The Bens
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So lets talk..
What have i been up to?.. WHo knoWs>..>.>BAM! ;-)
Nothing.. Absolutly the same old stuff.. nothing that exciting or outragousely fun. But i did go to a killah partyy on sat night. coulda been more fun coulda been way worse.
I had a good day today. I hung out with myles.. my car died on him ha ha ha. I saw nick for a while and hung out with him at erins with a hole lots of others.
I thought about life..Lifes good.. its pleasent its the same old shit and im used to it. I would enjoy some excitement, something new. But for now its all good.
I cant wait till this summer, WARPED TOUR, Trip w/eli&andrew, italy, moi and kevs big party.. What else who knows but im sure there is more to come.
MhMmmHhmMMmmm.. i meen com'on it is THE SUMMER..
"cuz we hurt eachother once before lets not do that again." |
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| So Yeah. Catch my disease i like Ben lee.. |
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| 11:02pm 30/03/2005 |
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mood: cheerful
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Dun Dun DUn..
So no matter how much i bitch about my work. I still like it eventhough i get off "late". My feet hurt and im usually kinda outa it. I suck at my work.. maybe its cuz ive only done it for two days. hahaha Its ok im getting the hang of it.
Yesterday i had a good day. Mr. M and I went and smoked a blunt together wich was nice because we sat around and talked about nonsense then we got back to my room and i like zonked out. and i dreamed.. my dream was funny and kinda weird and involved like a car and going places and leaving people and its was just a funny weird dream that i no longer remeber.. But i do remeber it was good and funy.. But who knows.
So its totally time to have like a big ass crazy party. That no one has ever seen.. soo yeah. With dancing. Of course it has to have dancing thats right we need a dance PaRrRrTtTttYYyYYyyYy
"after all its the end."
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| The Subject of us all.. But are we really a subject? ponder that. |
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| 09:42pm 24/03/2005 |
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mood: cheerful music: How sweet it is to be loved by you by Marvin gaye???
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When u grab ahold of me tell me that i'll never be set free.. but im a parasite creeping crawl i step into the night two pints of booze tell me are u a badfish too? are u a badfish too? aint got no money to spare i wish the night would never end. Lord knows im weak wont somebody get me off of this reef.
So i really should be doing my science project right now. But im lazy so im gonna turn part of it tomorow then the other part im not.. though i may depending on how long im awake for.. Hmmm... guess i'll be up all night. |
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| 09:37am 13/03/2005 |
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mood: chipper music: Flake By Jack Johnson.
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So i like going to bed late then waking up earlie its nice. thats all i have to say! like if u go to bed latish like around 3 its nice to wake up at nine due to the fact the sun comes up u can walk of ur hang over have a nice chat with someone if anyones up take a shower...damn.
Well i had an alright last night it was fun. It was interesting. It was just another night.
Life is interesting which is alright.
There is nothing new.
"New guinea New York U need SOmething NeW" |
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| Oh what lovely water is Earth-2-0 |
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| 08:14pm 03/03/2005 |
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mood:  Weirded out music: Bob marely and lauryn hill copy of Turn the lights down low
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So.. Registration.. yeah thats intersting. and im in the library next to someone who smells like trash, literally. Anyways im worried that im going to overwhelm myself if i take all ap classes which a good half of them might be. Ecspecaily since french 3 is basically just an ap class. Im thinking about taking ap history though. And i want to take ap psychology.. so next year will be intersting.. Anyways besides that lifes been good... and that is about it.
N m out Lovely ppls |
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| 10:14am 26/02/2005 |
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mood:  tired. music: Jack Johnson Flake
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Hmm.. I went to mexico it was nice.. its good to get away from everyone.. i have realized my life has had drastic changes almost all year. Its kinda odd. Im sick of everything i honestly am. People need to realize things but there unable to. Its old... i need to talk to peoples but im afraid they will be un willing to talk.
I just dont know what to think about anything anymore. |
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| 05:02pm 03/02/2005 |
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mood: happy music: My coco stellastarr
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Oh jee my title i suppose is "durty". Anyways.. on to more important matters... IM LEAVING FOR MEXICO SOON Yeah! and.. i have chest pains i dont think thats a good thing though.. Also i love my aerobics class its awesome.. and Im gonna run for asb senator SO THERE.. |
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| The Big CKY OF life.. |
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| 07:35am 02/02/2005 |
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mood:  sleepy music: Song 14 on sublimes 40oz.
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dun un.... I got my license on like.. january 26!! woot woot i have my licenses... yeah thats it. and.. im cooler than ian cuz i got mine before him and.. josh owes me lunch... and the french exchange student is tight.. and.. IM going to mexico soon ooh soo excited!
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| 06:04pm 23/01/2005 |
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mood:  sick music: SUbLimE 40oz to freedom.. bitches.
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Dun dun dun dun.. My tummy... is evil i swear to god i dont know whts wrong with it!
hmmm last night was alright. I hope holly isnt in trouble.
Damn finals.. Too many of them.. SO little time. |
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